"I will not leave you comfortless. I will come to you."

The title of my blog today comes from Jesus Christ. Don't ask where, because I don't know. I found it online. So, recently I have been trying to embark on a new life style. I wanted to just try to kind of fly solo, and try to picture how some people feel. I must admit, I think I did a pretty good job. I noticed unless I make the effort, a lot of people don't seek after me, they don't text me first, or send me cute messages first. I also learned that people don't care, and they are really oblivious. Fake smiles are so easy to have, yet so hard to realize. I have learned a lot about myself. I decided to buckle down and get to work on school, I need to prepare for my future somehow... That alone is a job within itself. So yesterday a good friend of mine said he needed some "cheering up" (something I wish I could post so bluntly on FB, but I'm too scared of what others with think) so i felt impressed to tell him to blog, that it would help him. It turned out that the blog helped ME. A short, paragraph long post about making the change hit home with me. Just DO IT. All day today I have thought about just forgetting about all my "friends" forgetting about what other people and the world think of me, and being me. Being happy when I want, feeling sad when I want, and most of all dropping everything and saying a prayer just because. His theme of just doing it makes me want to so bad. If people don't bring you up, why would you want to be friends with them? And if they bring you down, all the more reason to leave. So today we had a lesson in Sunday school about Godly sorrow, and I haven't really done anything bad but, it hit me hard. We always have the chance to be forgiven, and we don't suffer the pains of repentance to feel and, we do it because its Vital to feeling completely sorrowful. When we remember the awful feeling in our stomachs, the headaches from the tears, we will remember what we did and how it made us feel. Chances are, we won't want to do it again. I just really liked that we don't go through all of these trials for no reason, we only get as much as we can handle, but it helps us realize just how much we can endure through. I just want to end by saying I really love people who are there for me. Its nice to know that a few people actually care <3