Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

This half of the week has been quite uneventful, naturally making my life eventful... emotionally That's what happens when you have WAY to much time on your hands! You totally over think things! So... Im actually excited for this weekend. I honestly CAN NOT wait to cuddle up and listen to the prophets answer my questions! I feel lucky enough to have this blessing in my life. So, lately I have been reading some blogs... that have REALLY helped me out. One of them is my friends named Brian. His is so short, sweet and to the point. He gets his message across, yet in doing so touches my heart. http://littlemormon.blogspot.com/ that is the URL for it, so I HIGHLY recommend you check it out! He gets points out wayyyy better then me... he actually knows what hes talking about! Another is from a girl, who seems to have a lot of knowledge and inspiration. Her link is: http://www.kellyoneohone.blogspot.com/
I love the music on hers <3 So, today in Seminary something really  hit me. We really all do mess up. Nobody is perfect. But honestly, I can't live in the world while trying to keep my church standards. I have to decide what I want more in my life. Generations before us also had to make this choice. We can learn from them, that if you choose the right path that you will be blessed and it will work out better. But we also have the atonement. So even when we do mess up (it's bound to happen)  we can repent and be forgiven. No matter what we do, we have that option. We just have to humble ourselves enough to admit that that's what we need to do.  So, that's all I really have for today...

If you are constantly wondering where you stand with someone, it is probably time to stop standing and start walking.

Ok, so today has been quite a day! My ear has been bugging me all day! I think I have an ear infection :( But, I'm not sure since I have never had one before... but it REALLY hurts, so I started my day out irritable. I was kinda annoyed all day at school because I just wanted to sleep but I had way to much to work to do, and I knew when i came home I would have to write up 2 lab reports... fun, right? So, I was on Facebook and I saw a status I likes (it's the title of this post) and I made it mine. It fit PERFECTLY for the events that occurred today. I did Brian's challenge and began to make that change! Thanks Brian! Anyways, I then remembered it was Monday, so Robert emailed me! I was so excited and I was secretly hoping he sent me something really sweet to cheer up my day, but he didn't. Instead, an elder who used to be his companion sent me an email. It read "I hope you are doing fine,me too.It's my pleasure to write this piece of email,to get to know each other.In fact I served with your brother Elder Hales as my companion for six weeks he is so nice guy and hard worker.I don't have much but I wish I could meet with you face to face one day after my mission.I just wanna wish you nice week.May the lord bless you with His Happiness and Joy.
        
        With love,Elder Mgaya."

How sweet?! This simple email totally made my day! A guy who has never met me took time out of his day to share just a sweet and simple way. The Lord truly does know what we need and always finds a way of touching us, as long as we let him <3
I just felt like I should share this today!

"I will not leave you comfortless. I will come to you."

The title of my blog today comes from Jesus Christ. Don't ask where, because I don't know. I found it online. So, recently I have been trying to embark on a new life style. I wanted to just try to kind of fly solo, and try to picture how some people feel. I must admit, I think I did a pretty good job. I noticed unless I make the effort, a lot of people don't seek after me, they don't text me first, or send me cute messages first. I also learned that people don't care, and they are really oblivious. Fake smiles are so easy to have, yet so hard to realize. I have learned a lot about myself. I decided to buckle down and get to work on school, I need to prepare for my future somehow... That alone is a job within itself. So yesterday a good friend of mine said he needed some "cheering up" (something I wish I could post so bluntly on FB, but I'm too scared of what others with think) so i felt impressed to tell him to blog, that it would help him. It turned out that the blog helped ME. A short, paragraph long post about making the change hit home with me. Just DO IT. All day today I have thought about just forgetting about all my "friends" forgetting about what other people and the world think of me, and being me. Being happy when I want, feeling sad when I want, and most of all dropping everything and saying a prayer just because. His theme of just doing it makes me want to so bad. If people don't bring you up, why would you want to be friends with them? And if they bring you down, all the more reason to leave. So today we had a lesson in Sunday school about Godly sorrow, and I haven't really done anything bad but, it hit me hard. We always have the chance to be forgiven, and we don't suffer the pains of repentance to feel and, we do it because its Vital to feeling completely sorrowful. When we remember the awful feeling in our stomachs, the headaches from the tears, we will remember what we did and how it made us feel. Chances are, we won't want to do it again. I just really liked that we don't go through all of these trials for no reason, we only get as much as we can handle, but it helps us realize just how much we can endure through. I just want to end by saying I really love people who are there for me. Its nice to know that a few people actually care <3

Happiness and sadness run parallel to each other. When one takes a rest, the other one tends to take up the slack.

The past few days a lot has been on my mind. I have wanted to blog, but was afraid at just how much might come out. I lost my iPod on Saturday, and I STILL haven't found it. I have been overwhelmed with homework, and my English project has me so confused. So, to start out I want to talk about being happy in tough times. Everyone goes through them, it is just how we view our situations. It is SO hard to try and put a smile on your face when all you can think about is failing a test, being forever alone, having no friends, or TOTALLY lost on a school project. But, no matter what the problem, happiness is somewhere to be found, whether you can see it or not. Sorry, this is really random and doesn't quite fit with the theme for today. So, Tonight at dinner I talked with my mom and brother about which letter to choose. One of my friends had suggested "A" or "F" for Alone, or Forever alone... and I actually really have been considering this. I think as of now, its accurate. But, then my mom suggested doing a "V" Instantly, Andrew asked if that was for Virgin - nice. But, it stood for vulnerable. Not everyone might know this, but my feelings get hurt really easily, and some of the stupidest things really bother me, But, I have a good way of not showing it! So vote! Comment or text me on which letter I should do, and if you have any other Ideas, let me know! I want to end this blog post by saying thanks. To all those people who have stuck with me, when even I didn't want to be with me. And I want to apologize to all those who I have hurt or let down <3 Just blogging this has made me feel a lot better. "This is my "depressed stance." When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand. The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this."

Life isn't always what you want.

Where to begin? The past few days have been crazy and I'm not even sure why. I just know I'm overwhelmed with homework, yet I have this feeling that I need to be blogging, and relieve some of my stress and thoughts. I have been thinking a lot lately about being OK to change and move on, without having to make a big event happen first, or to have the change so dramatic. And I came to some good points. Change isn't a big deal. It is just a necessary part of life. Think about it. How slowly do we change. Everyday we change in some way, Our mood, our hair style, our clothes, whatever it may be, its a change. So why not change our actions in small steps? Why don't we Make sure we always speak in a tone and manner in which everyone feels comfortable and loved. Lately I feel like I have kind of shrugged off the people I love the most. I just wanted to be alone, and it hit me, that is NOT what I want! I want the opposite. I want someone to love me. Someone who texts me in the morning just to make sure i have a good day, I want that person who will listen to me ranting about some stupid project even when they have more important things. I just wanted to be loved. And not to say I don't love my friends that are girls, but A guy would be nice. I just feel kind of useless and like I'm just another person taking up space. I want to be that person who makes someones day because I smiled at them, or save someones life because I complimented their shoes. I want a lot of things. But, I am willing to give. I want to give my time to help the poor and needy. I want to help others feel welcomed and loved. I want to show people that someone always cares for them. So today I really don't have a theme. I just have a big list of what I want. A cry almost for help, but in reality I just want to get some things off my chest. I feel better now. A little anyways. I guess I just needed someone to talk to. And for someone to listen. I just want to end in a quote that I liked.
“All of us should accept things we cannot change. We should have strength to change what we can, but we must be wise enough to know the difference between these things.”

Our greatest glory consist not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.

This past week has been nothing but chaos, in which only good things have come. Or, I'm hoping something good will come from it. It all started Friday, while I was babysitting. Let me start by saying, if you are ever down, go play with a little kid, they ALWAYS know how to cheer you up! Anyways, after the little boy was sound asleep, My amazing friend Jazmin started texted me. I don't want to get in the details, but Saturday afternoon I received a call from her, and at 6:47 her flight to Texas would take off. I was Heart broken. Then, I took a step back and really pondered. She was finally getting the happiness she deserved, she got to start over, and get the chance to be with family.And then I remembered Jada. And how I felt when she was gone. I feel as if I'm closer, when in reality, I'm probably further. Space and distance brings people together. Take Robert and I for example, since he has left on his mission, him and I have grown a greater appreciation and love for one another. <3 Anyways, that night I went to a child hood friends surprise sweet 16! I had a BLAST! The people were great, the food amazing, and the games were so INTENSE! I also had a really good experience Saturday. Right after I found out Jazmin was moving, our wonderful elders stopped by! You call it a coincidence, but i think it was the spirit telling them I needed it. They blessed our Home and instantly peace was over me, my family and my home. What a blessing in my life. Sunday we then talked about everyone having a Divine purpose. That really opened my eyes on how I look at people, and what I think of others. It inspired me to give everyone the benefit of the doubt, and to realize their divine potential. Today was memorial day... Pool party, BBQ, and friends! Does it get any better?!? I think Not! Oh, and texting old friends... wow. This past weekend has tried me, and come out ahead. I have been blessed and shown loved from everyone I have come in contact with! I want to ed7nd with a quote "When one door of happiness closes, another opens, but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one that has been opened for us." Helen Keller