Let go and Let God

Sometimes you just need to let it all out. I've has a bit of a rough week. I have just been getting frustrated with everything and tired. I started noticing I was being selfish in my thoughts, judging others, and  just being unhappy. After a nicee lonnnnnggg vent to my friend I knew what I had to do. I've been doing the general conference 40 day and night thing where you read a talk from the April 2013 conference everyday! It seems as though everyday the talk speaks to me. It is always literally exactly what I needed. Here is the calendar





Anyway, I decided I needed to humble myself and come unto the Lord. I got on my knees and instantly I felt so much better. I poured my heart out and now I feel so much better. As I read the words of the prophet and apostles I know my Heavenly Father loves me. I know I was meant for these times and I know for a fact I was saved for this time. I have such a strong testimony of the plan of salvation. I am so grateful for this gospel. For the wise words given to us during conference. I am eternally indebted to my Father in Heaven. I love this church. I am grateful for my friends, for their support and encouragement. I know that as long as we do our best and try to stand by Him and follow Him, we will be happy. We will find joy in this life and we will receive blessings unimaginable from Him. I know these things to be true. In the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.

I've got a friend in me

I want to dedicate this blog post to friends. Often times in life I find myself saying "I have no friends" or "forever alone" But the truth is, neither of those are true. I have a few very special friends, who lately, have made a huge impact in my life.

The first is Katelyn Tucker. We met years ago in the Hill Cumorah Pageant, as will most of my friends on this list. Her and I have the same birthday, anddddd are going to the same state for our missions. She has been there for me as I worked on my papers. She listened to me rant when my sister got her call before me. She understands my struggle of shopping for modest clothes, and we helped each other prepare for the temple. She is absolutely  an amazing friend! I know I can count on her to give the best advice and to listen to me! I am SO excited for us to be in Salt Lake City together! HOLLLLLAAAA :D

Mariah Mader is another very special friend. She is why and how I got through Highschool. She is the reason I graduated magnet. She supports me in every choice I make. She is so hardworking and determined, not to mention her intelligence.  I know she will always listen to my stories, and most of the time take my side. Adventures are always the best with her and she is always up for them! Although she is in college now (rocking it might I add!) I treasure her visits! We can be silly, funny, stupid, and even deep with each other. Isn't that the best? NOT to mention her family... Her mom takes me in and loves me, and I love her. And her twin?! ONLY THE BEST! She always has me rollin and because of her I started working out. Melissa is a great workout buddy! HA! AND they had me over for Thanksgiving! I sure do love Mariah, Melissa, Mommy and the family.. except Lucy the cat!

Ali Spears is next on the list! First I wanna say she is BEAUTIFUL. I never thought someone as beautiful as her would want to be friends with me, I ruin all the pictures :p HA! ANYWAY! She makes time for me during her busy college life. She understands me and gets me. With all my mormon struggles. I know she will be a great missionary too. She is so proud and I admire that! She is truly an example to me. I know I can count on her with my issues and my secrets. She will always listen. I admire that quality in others. Her sister Tara is also fantastic, and I look at both of them as sisters, and I am SO proud of Tara's choice to get married and he is a lucky guy! Congrats to these lovely sisters on their accomplishments <3

Elder Bryan Jacobson... The first and only guy I trusted with everything. He is currently serving his mission, but boy am I proud! He is so fantastic. He always listened to me, and knew what to say. His testimony is stronger than anyone I know. He just has this spirit to him. I know just by reading his testimony how strong his faith is. He listens. He cares. He is my best friend (that's a male). I wish I could tell him all about my life, but I want him to focus on his mission because I know he is doing the right thing. I Know one day he will be the perfect dad and husband. He is such a pure and perfect person. He is already being an amazing missionary and I am SO proud of him! And his brother?! Such a great example! And His brothers blog always makes me want to go and do!

Next up is Crystal. I love her. It's as simple as that. Her faith is strong and rock solid. She always says and does the right things at the right time. She has a nack for that. I am proud of her in college. Her testimony amazes me, and I love how outspoken she is about the Gospel! You go Crystal!

Jenna Workman... My mission prep companion. My friend. She is so funny! And modest... literally! She always says the best comments and never fails to make me laugh. She is a HOOT! HA! Anyway, I love her strength and how outgoing she is. I love how she's not afraid to stand up for what she believes in! I just love her. And She is THE BEST letter writer! I can't wait to get all her letters while I'm serving a mission!

Last but NOT least, my beautiful sister. Ashley. We don't always get along. We fight sometimes. We laugh. A lot. I am going to miss her something FIERCE! She is my sister. My best friend. She gets me. We study together. We laugh together. Luckily we get to see movies together. I am excited to hear her stories and how she's growing. I love her. She is just so amazing and her heart is so big! Honestly, She loves everyone.

I know I have other friends, and many people help me in my everyday life. And I thank everyone for being apart of my life and for your support! I just felt like I need to express my gratitude for my friends more often. SO why not start here?! HA!  God Bless everyone!

PS I AM STOKED FOR CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!